10 Weeks

Now my baby is about an inch long! That's still so tiny, but then again, big compared to the past several weeks. Tomorrow is my second prenatal appointment and I'm kind of nervous. I'm really hoping that the midwife will try to find the heartbeat with the Doppler...and that she will find it. My MIL gave us a tape recorder so that we can record the sound of the heartbeat. Although I'm thinking that the video setting on our digital camera should pick it up just as well. Do doctors allow you to bring cameras in to record stuff like that? I guess it won't hurt to try. And don't ask me why I'm nervous...I just am. I'm worried something will go wrong, that if they try to find the heartbeat they won't hear it...that something may be wrong with the baby after all this time. I know I shouldn't worry and that it doesn't do any good, but I can't help it.

The past few days have been weird. I feel kind of depressed, but then again not really...not like I used to be. Matt is back from his business trip and I've just been sitting around the house. I worked out some yesterday, but my stomach was really upset so I didn't do much. Today all kinds of things need to get done. I should work out and shower, clean the floors, do the laundry, do the dishes, clean the kitchen, vacuum our bedroom, clear the clutter that is still sitting around from when we cleared out the china cabinet a few weeks ago. But I have no energy. I worry about the fact that I have no energy every day. I feel like I don't do enough. I try to do a little every day, but still...I feel like I shouldn't be this sluggish. The pregnancy book said to sleep and relax as much as possible in the 10 week chapter. But I don't know, I just feel bad about it. I don't like living in a messy house...but I don't like getting up to clean it either.

Matt's birthday is on Sunday. I don't have anything elaborate planned. We'll go to IH.OP for breakfast. Then to church if he wants to go. The afternoon is a blank.... I said we could just hang out around the house or go walking in a park or hiking somewhere. Now I'm thinking it would be nice to go to my parents' house so that they can give him the present they're buying him on Friday. I think it would be nice if my sister made him some cupcakes. She loves making them and Matt was talking about how much he wanted some the other day. But I don't know if he'll want to go over there.

For dinner I'm making him his favorite meal and then a cherry cheesecake pie. :-P He insists on calling it plain "cheesecake," which always bothers me. It's not cheesecake!! It's a bunch of mushy pudding stuff in a PIE crust with PIE filling on top! I've made it 2 or 3 times and each time it doesn't turn out right, but hopefully I'll manage this year. Last year I invited us over to the in-laws' house to celebrate his birthday and asked MIL to make him one. This year I'm not making any plans to help Matt see his family on his birthday. If they don't want to see their son on his birthday, their loss.

For Valentine's we're going to a Japanese steakhouse. We're actually going Friday night instead to maybe avoid crowding. Friday nights are usually busy too, but hopefully not as bad. That's really all we had planned. Matt wanted to take me to see this movie since he knew I read the book, but I'm not sure I want to see it in theatres. Although I've heard that it's really cool in 3D, so maybe if we can see it like that we'll go. On Saturday we'll rent a movie and just spend time together at the house! What are your Valentine's Day plans!?

Oh well...I'm off to.... hopefully... DO something!