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Major update

It's terrible that I haven't blogged in so long! It always makes me sad when I read a blog that hasn't been updated in months, even if it isn't a regular blogger friend. But here I am doing the same thing. I've thought about it off and on, wondering if I should officially quit blogging, but I think for now I'm going to hold on to it and do it when I can.

Anyway, the biggest update of all - I'm having another BOY!!!!!!! We're so excited to be expecting another boy on May 14. We've picked out the name Levi, but aren't publicly sharing it yet. It's not that it's a secret, we tell people if they ask, but for some reason I'm not ready to officially announce it to friends and family, put it on facebook, etc.

The pregnancy has been going fairly well. It's not as easy as it was with Evan though. I've struggled with depression and anxiety. I went off the meds around New Year's. Part of me is thinking about going on them again, even though it's the 3rd trimester. It's hard to explain to someone who hasn't been there, but I feel that emotionally I'm not doing very well. But enough about that! I don't want my first post in 4 months to be about depression!

We've decided on a rocket ship/outer space theme for Levi's nursery. I haven't started decorating yet. We've decided Levi will share a room with the office, not with Evan. But I still want to decorate it. Of course, he'll sleep with us for the first 4 months so it doesn't HAVE to be done when he's born, but I'd like it to be. We don't co-sleep in the bed, but he will sleep right next to my side of the bed in a bassinet. That's what we did with Evan and I really liked it.

Right now a friend is living with us and is staying in the office on an air mattress. She's been visiting her boyfriend the past few days so I had a chance to get in there and start some deep cleaning and organizing. When she moves out I'll start the decorating.

I will try my hardest to start posting more regularly now. And I will definitely announce when Levi arrives (hopefully as early as big brother Evan did!).

What's up with me!?

I can't believe it's been so long since I last posted, especially with everything that's been happening.

I'll kind of sum it up for y'all...

A couple of weeks ago, the week of Oct 18, I started having increased spotting (I'd already been having some, but not enough to be worried enough to make an appointment) and cramping. That had me worried, especially after my miscarriage. ** Let me pause here to say that everything is okay!! ** Of course all of this started on our way to Athens, Georgia, where Matt was going on a business trip. Evan and I were going along for fun, who would have thought it would turn out so badly!? I called the nurse the next day and she said to come in for an ultrasound......except I was 4 hours away from home and couldn't leave since Matt was working!! She said it would be okay to wait until that Friday for an ultrasound unless it got worse. She also said to go on pelvic rest (which I had already put myself on pelvic rest since I found out I was pregnant! lol). I was still having cramping that night. I called my mom and told her, she arranged for my sister to come pick me up the next day. But thankfully Matt was able to take off work so we left the next evening and I changed my u/s to Thursday in the early afternoon. That way my sister didn't have to drive 8 hours in one day to take me home.

I was SO SO SO nervous, I can't even describe. But we immediately saw the baby on the ultrasound and the u/s also picked up the sound of a healthy fast heartbeat!! I was even measuring a few days ahead. The baby was sleeping, the u/s tech tried to wake him up, but s/he wouldn't have it. Just like big brother Evan!

Anyway, it was determined that the spotting was from the cervix and normal and that the cramping is from my uterus expanding. The midwife said not to be concerned about the cramping and only call if the spotting turned to heavy bleeding. I had cramping that night, but ever since then I haven't had any cramping OR spotting. Thank the Lord!

We've been so busy this past month with traveling and visiting with family and friends. One weekend we went to my grandparents' house, then a birthday party one weekend, then we went to Athens, then to Savannah, and then there was Halloween. Evan dressed up as a dinosaur (of course!) and was ADORABLE!! He started completely walking on Oct 27 and I'm so glad he was walking for Halloween. I LOVE that he's walking. It's so much easier and now we can go outside all the time since he isn't dragging his knees and feet around in the dirt and on the concrete.

I gotta end this post for now, but I'll leave you with some pictures...

guilty

I feel guilty for not eating well with this pregnancy. For not exercising. For not being as careful. For taking medicine instead of having the med-free pregnancy I had last time.

Good news!

I found out I'm pregnant on September 3! I can't believe I've waited this long to announce it on here. I've been meaning to do it, but as odd as it is, I just wasn't motivated to do it. So here I am....5 weeks and 3 days along (where I was at when I had my miscarriage during my first pregnancy) and just now telling y'all.

I'm due May 13. I had my first appointment last Tuesday and have an ultrasound scheduled for this Friday!! The due date may change after the u/s. I know when I ovulated, but I will probably just go with whatever the u/s tech says is my due date so that we're on the same page as my midwives.

I started charting at the beginning of July. I thought my cycles were regular, but after being a week and a half late and still getting BFNs I decided it would be less stressful to start charting. I didn't even know if I was ovulating since I was still breastfeeding. I actually started weaning Evan at the beginning of July because my milk would not come in for his last feeding. I kept pumping at night and nursing him 3 times a day though. Over the next 2 months I gradually weaned him until he was officially weaned the week after his birthday. At which point I had already conceived this baby!

We haven't told many people yet. A few friends. My sister found out because we went to a gathering together where one of my friends guessed I was pregnant. So I admitted it and Melissa found out. But my parents don't know, we're waiting until after the u/s to tell them. I ordered Evan a "Big Brother" t-shirt with dinosaurs on it. We're going to take him to my parents' house when he's wearing it and let them figure it out from that. :-)

So far I've been feeling pretty good. Dizziness and fatigue and a general upset stomach. For awhile I was having pretty intense achy cramps and lower back aches. Which worried me a lot, but the midwife says not to be concerned about anything unless it's accompanied by bleeding, so hopefully it's all okay. I've been having intense dreams the past 2 nights. I've felt a little nauseous a couple of times, so I'm wondering if morning sickness is slowly setting in.

I'm excited but nervous. I'll feel much better if we have a good ultrasound on Friday. I will keep y'all updated, I promise! And one of these days I'll get back into the routine of reading everyone's blogs again. :-)