15 Weeks

15 weeks! Baby is the size of an apple or orange. I think that I may have an official bump now. My clothes still fit the same, but I've noticed that it's harder to suck in the past week and that there's definitely always a firm bump.

I just found out that another friend of mine from high school is pregnant! That makes 3 that are due in Sept and Oct. Too bad none of them live here though. I don't know anyone who lives here that is pregnant.

I'm still tired all the time, but I've been feeling better overall this past week. Of course, I've had several nights of good sleep. However, I'm still only sleeping 8 hours a night maximum, I don't think my body has really caught up from the many nights of only getting 5 hours. Did I mention last week that my midwife said I could take medications that cause drowsiness to sleep? I am against drugging myself though. So unless I go several nights in a row without sleeping much I won't be taking any although my mom just gave me a bunch of Tyle.nol PM yesterday.

For some reason I'm feeling lonely and kind of down today. I don't know why. I guess it's the first day in awhile that I'm not going out. Monday I had a chiropractor appointment, yesterday I got my hair trimmed and then went to visit with my mom the rest of the afternoon, and over the weekend Matt and I were busy the whole time and went out shopping both days. And Friday I was out with my mom. So anyway, I guess that's what it is. I wish I had a car because I'd go visit my mom again so that we could go out walking. It's a really great day out, but I don't like walking by myself. And right now is especially frustrating because my neighbor got laid off so he's always out in his yard (if it's nice outside).

We don't have much privacy between our yards, so I feel very uncomfortable going outside to sit at our patio table to read and hang out. I had the same problem at our apartment. The first several months we didn't have patio furniture so it was hard to spend time out there. During the summer I bought a patio set with some of my graduation money and was so excited that we could spend the summer months sitting and eating outside. However, right after buying it a man moved next door who was unemployed and smoked. He was ALWAYS outside on his balcony smoking. I couldn't go out because not only would he stare at me, the smoke was really bad. So Matt and I spent the summer inside, not being able to go out and enjoy the balcony (we couldn't even open the doors to let the air flow in because of the awful smell). Now that the weather is nice here and I want to go out I have yet another unemployed man next door who is always outside! At least he doesn't smoke, but it's just really awkward to me. Maybe some women could go and sit and lay out with men around, but I'm not like that at all. I can't even leave the house without this guy seeing me because the only doors to get out are on the side and in the front, in plain view of his yard. I'm looking forward to someday (hopefully soon) having a large patio with a door in the back and a privacy fence to shield it from the neighbor!!!!

Okay, so rant is over and here's the picture:
See the little bump? Ugg..and I just now noticed you can tell my bra is very ill fitting. I had to go up a size, but it's still a little baggy in the cups so sometimes it kind of gapes and sometimes it slips down. *sigh*