guilty

I feel guilty for not eating well with this pregnancy. For not exercising. For not being as careful. For taking medicine instead of having the med-free pregnancy I had last time.

Gender theory *updated!

*UPDATE:Well I think that all the ladies on the message board I was on were confused! lol It's funny that EVERYONE was confused about the same thing. But I'm still not sure if it matters where the baby is located in the uterus or if it's where the placenta is located. And I don't know how to tell where the placenta is. Speaking of placentas, I hope I don't have an anterior one this time because I want to feel the baby kick sooner and more often!!

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http://www.obgyn.net/ultrasound/ultrasound.asp?page=/fm/articles/fetal_gender_placental_location

Interesting article about a theory that states that the gender of a baby can be determined from early ultrasounds. If the baby implants on the right side of the uterus it's a boy and if it's on the left side it's a girl.

I read a message board thread and it was correct for the women who had had babies before. I don't know if it's correct with Evan because I can't remember which side he was on and the u/s pictures I have are zoomed in and centered so I don't know.

Just wondering if any of you have heard of this and have an opinion. Obviously it's just a theory, but it may or may not have been right for you! I'm curious to know if it was and if you want to give me a link to your early u/s pictures feel free!

Evan's early u/s picture is on the right side bar (6w5d). His later u/s pictures are HERE (18w) and HERE (32w5d).

This baby's early u/s picture is less clear than Evan's (as far as seeing the baby). Probably because it was done almost a week earlier than his! I still need to post it, but it looks like the baby implanted on the left side so maybe a girl if this theory is correct? I will talk more about gender in a later post...

13 Months Old

My son is 13 months today! He's been celebrating by doing all kinds of exciting growing up things.

For the last week his first molar has been breaking through. He had his flu shot a week ago and had a fever that night. Then the next couple of days didn't eat as much. It wasn't until he started jerking his head away when I'd give him a sippy cup or put my hand near my face that I realized he was teething since I thought those symptoms were a side effect of the shot. I'm still not sure about the fever. He did have a teething fever of 101 a couple of months ago, but this was even higher (103). So maybe it was a combination of the shot AND teething.

He WALKED the other day!!! I said "come here" while he was standing holding on to the door jamb. He took a step, then looked down and deliberately took another step, then another step, then another. By then he was to me! I made a big deal about it and immediately went to change my facebook status, bragging about his accomplishment. I didn't think he'd do it again but I got right back down on the floor and stood him up a few feet away. He walked right to me! He did it several times. I think the most steps he took in a row were about 7. He did really well too, he didn't wobble much or fall down. He would always make it to me! I'm so proud of him, you'd think this was something only he does and not every single baby in the world, but he did such a great job!!

My mom said that when I was a baby I walked a couple of times when I was almost 1. I fell down and she said I didn't walk again for a couple of months, then when I did start I walked perfectly and never fell. I guess I was a perfectionist even then! But Evan is 13 months and just walked for the first time. He hasn't walked since then. I couldn't get him to yesterday or so far today. However, he did this same thing with crawling and a lot of the words he says. He'll do it a few times in a row, then stop doing it for weeks and then suddenly start again.

He also said 2 words together for the first time this morning! He said "Hey Kitty." He said it several times after Matt said it. SO cool!! He's just been all around more vocal today, saying words that he's been able to say for months, but usually doesn't say. He said "da" (daddy), "bye bye," "okay," "kitty," and "hey kitty" this morning.

He also got scratched by our cat Serenity this morning, shortly after saying "Hey kitty" to her. Evil cat. Her claw covers fell off weeks ago but we haven't had many problems with her scratching him so we didn't replace them. But tonight we will definitely put them back on her! She scratched his face, about half an inch under his eye. It bled and now there's a scab there and it's looking a little puffy around it. I washed it after it happened, but I'm going to watch it to make sure it doesn't get infected.

That's all for Evan's 13 month update. I think I still have yet to post his 12 month stats from his doctor's visit a month ago....I will have to do that soon!

ultrasound

The ultrasound went well on Friday!!! *big sigh of relief*

We saw and heard the baby's heartbeat. It was 92 bpm. I'm measuring what I thought I was measuring, but it's about a week earlier than they thought. So I was 5 weeks 6 days. My due date is officially May 14.

I haven't scanned the ultrasound picture yet, but I will post it soon. :-)

Other Updates

At the end of July I became a consultant for Pampered Chef. I'm surprised at how much I enjoy it! It's been a great way to make extra money and get out of the house a little bit. I'm a little concerned at how it will work if I have morning sickness as bad as I did with Evan though. I could hardly stand the smell of most foods then, so I definitely wouldn't be able to go to someone's house and cook a meal while giving a demonstration! But we'll see how it goes. The good thing about PC is that I can take a break and then start up again whenever I want.

It's a big change for me. I wish I had started doing it years ago when I couldn't find a job before we started TTC. I remember feeling so depressed that I didn't have anything to do. I'm just surprised more people don't do this! Not only do I earn a commission (that is higher and higher the more I sell each month) I get SO MUCH free stuff. I have received HUNDREDS of dollars worth of free stuff in the last month and a half. If any of you are interested in learning more please email me (click on my profile on the left sidebar) and we can chat about it!

Another big thing going on right now is that we have decided to try to sell our house!! I'm really, really hoping it will work out. We actually have a specific house in mind that we want to buy. I'm praying desperately that it will stay available until we can get it! But the price was just reduced this week...the owners are very eager to sell. So I'm worried that it's not going to stay on the market much longer....

I just hope our house will sell FAST! The realtor who helped us buy our house is confident that we will sell pretty quickly. He's not in the business now so we are searching for another realtor. Uggg...that's already been a mess. I guess I should just take care of it myself, but basically I told Matt that if he couldn't get hold of the lady we were wanting (that my parents used a couple of years ago) by late morning to find someone else so we can start the process NOW. But of course it's been 2 days and nothing has happened.

Ahh! I'm excited/nervous about that on top of being excited/nervous about this pregnancy. I'm just hoping that soon the time will fly by as we pack up our stuff and move from this 40 year old 3 bedroom 1450 sq ft house to an 8 year old 6 bedroom 2940 sq ft house with an office, dining room, garage and neighborhood park!!

Good news!

I found out I'm pregnant on September 3! I can't believe I've waited this long to announce it on here. I've been meaning to do it, but as odd as it is, I just wasn't motivated to do it. So here I am....5 weeks and 3 days along (where I was at when I had my miscarriage during my first pregnancy) and just now telling y'all.

I'm due May 13. I had my first appointment last Tuesday and have an ultrasound scheduled for this Friday!! The due date may change after the u/s. I know when I ovulated, but I will probably just go with whatever the u/s tech says is my due date so that we're on the same page as my midwives.

I started charting at the beginning of July. I thought my cycles were regular, but after being a week and a half late and still getting BFNs I decided it would be less stressful to start charting. I didn't even know if I was ovulating since I was still breastfeeding. I actually started weaning Evan at the beginning of July because my milk would not come in for his last feeding. I kept pumping at night and nursing him 3 times a day though. Over the next 2 months I gradually weaned him until he was officially weaned the week after his birthday. At which point I had already conceived this baby!

We haven't told many people yet. A few friends. My sister found out because we went to a gathering together where one of my friends guessed I was pregnant. So I admitted it and Melissa found out. But my parents don't know, we're waiting until after the u/s to tell them. I ordered Evan a "Big Brother" t-shirt with dinosaurs on it. We're going to take him to my parents' house when he's wearing it and let them figure it out from that. :-)

So far I've been feeling pretty good. Dizziness and fatigue and a general upset stomach. For awhile I was having pretty intense achy cramps and lower back aches. Which worried me a lot, but the midwife says not to be concerned about anything unless it's accompanied by bleeding, so hopefully it's all okay. I've been having intense dreams the past 2 nights. I've felt a little nauseous a couple of times, so I'm wondering if morning sickness is slowly setting in.

I'm excited but nervous. I'll feel much better if we have a good ultrasound on Friday. I will keep y'all updated, I promise! And one of these days I'll get back into the routine of reading everyone's blogs again. :-)

1st Birthday!

My baby is a year old!! I feel like I should write a long post using beautiful words to describe how touched I am that my baby is a year old today. But I can't put into words how I feel right now. I'm so HAPPY. I thought I might be sad or a little weepy that my baby is growing up, but I just feel so proud of him and I'm glad that we had such a wonderful year.

Evan is such a good little boy. I know I've written about it before and it might make some people (including other mothers!) want to gag, but he really is such a great child. I've been so blessed for multiple reasons this past year. 2009 and 2010 have been the best years of my life. I was thinking the other day about the years leading up to Evan's birth. Wondering which was the worst year. Thinking 2006 was pretty bad...but 2008 was worse. And 2007 wasn't so hot either. But then as soon as 2009 came around I found out I was pregnant...and my life changed for the better. Check out the announcement, pictures of the day he was born, and my birth story. Awww, I just want to thank Joy again...just thinking of how sweet she was makes me tear up!

We had a dinosaur birthday party for Evan on Saturday. We invited his playgroup friends, my family, and a couple of our friends (Evan's adopted aunt and uncle). My grandma flew out from Arkansas just for Evan's birthday! And my great aunt, great uncle, and their daughter decided to come at the last minute from SC. Like, about 2 hours before the party started my mom called me to "warn" me that they were coming. I was glad they were able to share the day though.

It was a lot of fun! Not many of his playgroup friends could come since 2 were on vacation and 3 were sick. But 3 of them did come and it was nice to have other kids his age there. We grilled out on the patio and everyone ate under the trees in our backyard. It was the first day in months that the weather wasn't super humid and hot. Evan opened his presents and boy did he receive a lot!! One of my favorites was a monogrammed towel with his name and a dinosaur on it. I don't really know what his favorite is yet. My parents gave him a walking dinosaur toy that plays music and he likes to dance to it, but isn't doing too well walking with it. He also liked a poppy up toy that also plays music. And of course he loves the books he received.

He inhaled his cake!!! As soon as it was put in front of him he grabbed a fistful of icing and shoved it into his mouth. You'd think he knew what a cake was even though we've only given him a couple of sweets before and in VERY small portions. Matt cut him a really big piece of cake. After a few minutes I went over to take it away since I didn't want him to actually eat it all....and it was GONE. He ate every bite of it! I wouldn't even eat a piece of cake that big!! Everyone was quite amazed by it. He actually resorted to 2 hands so he could eat it faster. Thankfully I got a video of it. ;-)

Today on his actual birthday we sang "Happy Birthday" to him first thing in the morning (and I sang it to him after he woke up from both of his naps). Unfortunately the middle of the day wasn't so happy. Evan had his first real injury. He was in the bathroom and toppled over and hit his mouth on the corner of the cabinet. It was bleeding A LOT. And he was crying A LOT. I was trying to call Matt who wasn't answering. Then I called the nurse and talked to her in between Evan's screams. She told me to get him to stop crying and let him suck on a popsicle. So he did, but the bleeding continued and he kept crying even on his 3rd popsicle. But Matt came home and we were able to locate the source of the bleeding. He cut his gum and the inside of his lip between his 2 front teeth. The bleeding stopped after awhile. The nurse called me back twice to check on him and give me instructions. Basically I gave him ice water a lot. He took a long afternoon nap and his lip was a little swollen when he woke up, but he was acting fine.

So nothing really serious, but it was scary (I was afraid he'd knocked out a tooth at first!) and stressful. I was by myself when it happened and trying to clean up the blood and give him an ice pop (good thing my sister had left some in the fridge after she stayed here last month!) and locate the source of the bleeding. Then after about 15 minutes my sister and grandma came in (and were no help whatsoever) and then Matt came in a couple of minutes after that. Then I felt like there were TOO many people in the house and it was just making Evan more upset. But Matt was great and helped comfort Evan and clean him up (we were both covered in blood and grape popsicle).

We went out to dinner with my family to Cracker Barrel for Evan's birthday dinner. That's his favorite restaurant. :-) And now he's back in his crib, talking and cooing even though he should be sleeping. Such a little sweetie!!